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Jun
27
20101 Tea and Biscuits

Raining outside, having Marie biscuits dipped in Sulaimani tea. Its not exactly this, but God it's good!
Posted by Kenny at 7:44 AM Links to this post
Jun
26
20101 FTW!!

I got my chemistry paper today and as I had so confidently predicted, I failed. Spectacularly. I got a 3.5 out of 20. Maybe it's time to drop out of science and start my own astrology shop lol. Anyway I'm not depressed. Wait that's a lie. I'm a little disappointed. However not overly suicidal because just three people got above 10 in the paper and out of the remaining people, 90% of them failed with a score of less than 6. Another plus factor is that these exams arn't counted and this could be a wake up call for me to study for the ones that ARE counted. Speaking of waking up and starting to work hard, this is the conversation I had with theLR of my class today.


LR: Kenny, what is this? You call these marks? You didn't study no?

Me: Yeah I know, I studied only one chapter *sad face*

LR: Why Kenny? Why? Why did you not study?

Me: Hmm I dont know...mumble mumble..I just wasted my time I guess.

Gitanjali: Ask me! All this time I told him to study but all he did was watch football and go to play on the beach! #yeah thanks for backing me up here. NOT!#

LR: See? Atleast listen to her! Anyway now forget all this, study hard from now on OK? Resolve this paper and give it up to KP on Monday. And don't just copy the answers from the text book, really solve the paper. That's the only way you'll learn. Don't regret about this now. These exams aren't counted so don't be worried. Just promise me you'll study hard from now onwards. Just imagine what your parents will go through if they come to know about these marks. Won't they be disappointed?They had such high expectations Kenny... *this goes on for some more time*

Me*thinking to myself*:OMG! Am I on Punk'd? Who are you, my mom?? Just leave me alone!

Thinking back on it though I shouldn't have been so rough on her. At least she gave a shit.

I got a 9/10 on my first psychology test yesterday so that is a good thing but I'm not really that elated because the test was chicken feed. *Inner conscience- "STFU Kenny! Learn to count your blessings!" I showed the psycho test to my parents but I dodged their questions about the other marks. Ignorance is bliss I guess.

On other stuff, I've taken up learning sign language (yeah the type that the vocally and auditorily challenged people use) and its really really cool! ASL University offers really nice and easy lessons online. My br
I was horribly, horribly sick today. Massive headache on the way home and a throw up fest at home to finish it off. I really have to take care of my health I guess but I hardly seem to have the time to do anything. If I die a premature death, St. Xavier's Higher Secondary will be hearing from my attorney/solicitor! Another thing is I can't go to play on the beach nowadays so I hardly get to exercise. My body rots between home and St. Xavier's. And this weather doesn't exactly help either. Sure, I love the rains and all but it's really not sponsoring my health and you have no idea how difficult it is to get out of my warm, comfortable bed and unwrap myself from my soft and amazing blanket when its freezing cold and raining outside to haul my ass to Xavier's. Also I just learned that my bio teacher comes to Mapuca all the way from Margao so I have no reason to complain.


Brazil vs Portugal on right now!

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders,
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours,
These small hours still remain
All of my regret
Will wash away some how
But i can not forget
The way i feel right now
In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists & turns of fate
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away but these small hours
These small hours, still remain,
Still remain
These little wonders
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away
But these small hours
These little wonders still remain - Little Wonders, Rob Thomas

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Jun
20
20103 Hats Off! #1 Ankur AKA Enkore

I'm starting this series about the people I have met in my life who really worked hard, swam against the current and produced the extraordinary.





To start off this series I'm going to talk about Ankur Johar AKA Enkore of Munky Rhymz.



I've known Ankur since he was a kid in school. I'm pretty sure he doesn't remember this but he is the reason I broke my tooth in the 1st Std (no hard feelings lol). He was one of my best friends in school and there are a lot of memories I really cherish about the shit we used to do in school. When we were kids Ankur never showed any inclination in moving towards the uber rapper he would turn out to be many years later. In fact our greatest verbal achievements were swearing about everything under the sun in the most colourful and vibrant swear words created by man. After the 7th std. Ankur left our school and moved to a different state so we lost contact. We got back in touch much later through Facebook and then onto Twitter and it was through Twitter itself that I found out about his blog and what a crazy rapper he had developed himself into.

Rapping isn't a joke and for those who live outside of India, you must know that rap in India is still at it's lowest level with hardly any sponsors, few professional recording studios and even fewer record companies and deals. Indian society, though gradually adapting to the western way of life, still find it hard to accept rap for what it is. An art form. Another contributing factor to the blockage of progress in rap is the current education. With demanding hours, fierce and cut throat competition and a huge load of exams all piling the pressure on, there is hardly any time for a youngster writing rhymes. Many parents too are reluctant to push their children into this field thinking that it has no scope and instead make their children study hard to become a doctotor or an engineer. To top it off India has no semi-decent music school and no proper courses to follow even if your parents DO agree to this career option.

Despite all of these setbacks Ankur has remained a fighter, often proving his critics wrong by spewing dope rhyme after dope rhyme with an uncanny consistency. He's been hit, but never stayed down. His pen name 'Enkore' is now famous in the underground rap scene here in India. He's won numerous battles and much aclaim from fellow rappers. His blog showcases his tunes and his rhymes and though there was talk of him shutting shop and stopping rapping I don't think that is ever going to happen because writting lyrics is a part of him that will never die no matter what.

As of today Enkore has been featured in 6 mixtapes and has made a compilation of his own called The Calling. He has released more than 50 songs and written rhymes for a gazillion others. He is an active crew member of the hot Munky Rhymz along with Hustler. He is a pioneer of the field. A lion in a sea of gazelles. A decade ago people would have laughed if they knew Ankur was Enkore. Now they look on in awe, for even if he doesn't get into mainstream commercial rap with a record deal, he will always be the one who followed a path many would have dared not. And no matter what, he will always, always, be a winner.

To get your fill of Enkore and his verses check out his blog at http://thisisenkore.blogspot.com/


#Respect
Posted by Kenny at 9:32 AM Links to this post
Jun
16
20101 Monotone

4 interesting things happened in college today:


1) Answered my chem paper. Failing for sure. The first 4 questions were so easy they were like laughing gas and they put me in a relaxed and calm state.

The rest of the paper shot me in the head with a .44 Magnum. Point blank.



2) In the second lecture I had an eight second long yawn. This is a personal best for me so I guess there is something to cheer about in my life after all.



3) Our CR (class representative) and LR (Ladies representative) were elected today. I have nothing more to say on this other than both of them had equal sized moustaches.



4) I just discovered that my physics lab partner is a brain eating, blood sucking parasite. With a mouth that goes a 1000 words/second.



And I think to myself, what a wonderful world.
Posted by Kenny at 5:52 AM Links to this post
Jun
15
20100 This is A Tribute

to the most amazing person I have met in my life.

So here's to Gitanjali Kerkar, Miss Awesome.






Edit: No matter what happens, this blog post will not be edited, deleted or rewritten for the rest of my life.
Posted by Kenny at 5:01 AM Links to this post
Jun
14
20101 Scared ,Disappointed, Mindfucked?

First, sorry about the spew of sad language in the title itself but if you were in my place you would have done the same.



Second, if your in a good mood, don't read this post. This post doesnt exist. Come back later when you are in a bad mood. Misery loves company.




Ok now it starts. I'm scared. Yes, go ahead laugh but I am seriously scared. now you may ask the question what scares the great and awesome Kenny Silveira? Well there isnt one, but many things that intimidate me right now.



First of the many, my exams. There used to be a time when I was actually Kenny Silveira, the happy-go-lucky, come-what-may-im-going-to-have-fun, live for the moment guy, but that guy died somewhere during the repeated year and what you are looking at now is just the empty shell of what Kenny Silveira once used to be. I had my biology premidterm exam today and it was the most disappointing day of my life. I studied enough to get atleast a 15/20, or atleast I thought so anyway but destiny isnt like that I guess. The questions in my paper were from the very furthest corners of the book and I think I could be getting anything between 7-9 at the most. When I was in the 11th I bought a bio text book 2 days before the exam and studied just one chapter and answered. I got 16.

This time I slog my ass of (mostly) and what is the use? The answers I've written in today's paper are fecking shite. I was so disappointed with myself after the exam I thought I was dying. Biology is one area where I pride myself on being good. It's my element, my ballpark and I take to it like a duck takes to water, but there I was expecting less than average marks in a subject where I should have got full marks. I was gutted, absolutely gutted. It took all the will power I could muster to put on a brave face and laugh about it in school. I came home and stood under the shower for about 45 minutes with my forehead resting on the wall, completely wrecked.(kind of like Kai in Beyblade but I didn't realize it at that time)

And you want to know the best part? I have a chemistry exam day after tommorow with the portion for the exam so large it makes a blue whale look like a male sperm cell. And I haven't even started yet! And it's definitely not my ballpark now. I could have taken the day off from college tommorow since I dropped math but still more bad news, our practicals have started so I can't even stay at home and study anymore. AND I have 3 fecking hours of tutions! I dont know when I'm going to study, I don't know what I'm going to write and I don't know how the hell I'm going to lie to my dad telling him the paper was good.

This is another thing I'm disappointed about, my dad has done everything possible to help me get a good education. He put me in the best private school in the state so that it would be easier in for me in college but a repeated year and these horrible marks isn't a way to pay him back. My parents doesn't deserve this. They have never held back on anything when it came to my studies and I want to do them proud but somehow its just not happening.

I remember a time when I could just study one day before my exam and get a distinction(not study at all and get slightly more than average marks) infact for my board exams I used to get up early and play DOTA! I've just lost that power now. Our high and mighty institution chose the worst time in the world to host these premidterm exams. Amazing movies are releasing right now (see: the karate kid), the damn FIFA world cup (which I wanted to blog about but havn't had the time) two new shows on Star World (Glee and White Collar) and the rain! You have absolutely no idea how much it hurts to stay inside and study in these rains while my friends are out there revelling in it while playing football on the beach. I'm heartbroken in the worst possible way. I would happily go through 10 break ups than go through this living hell. It's that bad.

I'll post about the next of many fears some other time. *gets up and goes on a quest to find some Valium*
I don't know if you can feel my misery...It's just so damn hard to convey it in words.


This post was not written by Kenny Silveira, the guy who never feared an exam, who never studied hard enough, even for his boards which were worth 100 marks, but always got them with the littlest of efforts. This post is writtten by a guy who was scared shitless about a premidterm exam of 20 marks, which isn't counted for the boards and which he got raped in.
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All rights reserved Black Holes And Revelations o had actually gotten me to think about it a month back I was blasting some music in my room and he said it was raping his eardrums. He asked me how the hell was I going to talk to him again if he turned deaf lol. I'm not really good at it, IMO but I'm pleased with my progress so far (which is hardly anything)

Also I'm turning 18 in less than a month. I'm finding it hard to think about something more depressing.
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Jun
24
20103 A Man Of Small Things

I am a man of small things. Small pleasures have the power to make my day. Just a few days ago I was walking down the St Xavier's slope in a really really bad mood with my old jacket on when it suddenly started raining cats and dogs. Bad mood was kicked in the backside.


I didn't pull up my hood and walked down the entire slope slowly, soaking myself in the rainwater. At the bottom of the slope I bought an Appy and sipped it like it was Elixir as I walked my drenched body to the bus stand without a care in the world. This is pretty high up in the rankings of one of the greatest feelings of my life. Some people need large jewels, while others want pots of cash, while still others want all the power in the world. Me? All I need is an old jacket, processed apple juice and water falling from the heavens.